Since I agreed to join the First Friday Fast, an effort to pray and fast for the end of abortion, I have to confess I haven't done a great job at it! I participated for a few months I think before I found out I was pregnant. After that, of course, I couldn't fast but had every intention of giving something else up and doing the adoration. However, I quickly became overwhelmed by morning sickness 24/7 and everything else went out the window. I remember one First Friday in particular when I was lying in bed completely miserable and decided that I was suffering much more than any time I have ever fasted before! So I spent the day giving up my nausea and other stuff I won't go into for the end to abortion.
This month I am feeling so much better and was thrilled to be able to actively participate yesterday. I gave up watching television and listening to the radio as my "fast". It may not sound like a lot to some but this is HUGE for me. I am truly addicted to background noise in my life and recently have really been making an effort to cut back on it as much as possible...but to go completely without anything for a whole day - YIKES!! The hardest part was in the car on my way to the sonogram. Even though it was my third, I was as nervous, anxious and excited about it as I was for my first. I didn't even sleep well the night before! I was dying to listen to something to calm myself down. At first I tried to talk myself into the thought that it would be okay to listen to Catholic radio or Christian music. Then I tried to tell myself that I really should try to catch the traffic report to make the best decision on which route to take to the doctor's office. I quickly realized these were ridiculous rationalizations and then wondered what in the world I could do with all of the quiet. Duh...pray! So I got to pray the Chaplet of Divine Mercy on my way to the doctor and even finished right as I was getting off of the highway to turn into the doctor's office parking lot!
I even made it to adoration thanks to my mom who took the girls so I could go. It was wonderful. It is truly amazing to have that time with Jesus!
No matter what level my involvement each month, it is always so meaningful to do something proactive to combat such evil in our world. I appreciate the opportunity to be involved.