Sometimes I think it would be easier to live in the dark. I know it was much easier when I lived in the dark about birth control - the church's teaching on it, the fact that that pill causes embryo's to abort. The pill was sooooooo much easier than NFP - even though it made me feel awful, have no sex drive and, oh yeah, put my eternal soul in jeopardy...but it was still easier!
Then there is what I read today. I was having a nice Sunday afternoon. Sure, I'm having to do a little work (on a Sunday - gasp - don't tell the Pharisees) but at least it's from home while the girls are down for naps. When the girls got up we were thinking of heading for the nursery to get some nice little impatiens to go in the garden. Doug is going to mow later and I thought the girls would have fun running around while I did some gardening. You get the picture. I took a break from working to peruse some blogs. And then my day was ruined. I read something so horrifying that it caused me to wish I lived on a desert island where I knew nothin' 'bout nothin'.
I read how partial birth abortions are performed - or would be performed if the Supreme Court had not upheld the ban. It is the most sickening thing I've ever heard of in my life. I had really never wondered exactly what a partial birth abortion is or how it was done. I knew that the ruling by the Supreme Court was a good thing and was happy about it of course, but truthfully was sort of getting tired of hearing and reading about it. After spending about 15 minutes sobbing - I'm talking the heaving, sputtering, tears and mascara everywhere kind of sobbing, I wondered for the millionth time if I was doing the right thing by bringing children into a world where something like not only takes place, but has people fighting for it to take place.
First Friday is coming up soon. I am more on board than ever with the group of Dallas bloggers who are fasting and praying before the Eucharist each first Friday. I wish there was more that I could do. I'm just in sort of a state of shock - my naive little bubble has been burst.